You should know things aren't always what they seem

I have quite the dilemma on my hands, I honestly do not know what I want to do for a career! I know many teenagers fresh out of high school have this situation and they always get through it, But I am having a rough time with it! haha
I was thinking either being a veterinarian or a dental hygienist. But then I started to think like do I really want to do one of these things? Then I started to think about being a nutritionist or a dietitian, but I've always wanted to become a veterinarian.
So! I am kind of stuck on what I would like to do and what college I should go to. I had my eyes set on Monroe Community College, also since we moved down here, but they don't have much courses to choose from. Also I was talking about it to my mom and she said well how about you try Wayne Community College. So I looked on there and they have more courses than Monroe but it will cost more since we don't live in Wayne County anymore.
I have a lot of thinking to do though. That is my conclusion on all of this haha!

Anyways, Graduation is in a couple of weeks which I am very excited about. I feel so relieved that I actually did it! I made it through high school without failing, for the most part haha!
But I am very excited for everything about to happen. I am ready to get out of high school and go to college and start on my way towards becoming a "real" adult.
The only thing that I am not so happy about is that Amanda (my sister) cannot make it to my graduation. Since now she lives with her boyfriend, Joel, out in Iowa and they have a lot of bills to pay but hey, it's life. I just wish she would be able to come out here for it. I would feel much better if she could. But I did tell her that she will definitely be here for my college graduation :p
Also she said she will be here for my graduation party, so hopefully she will. Because if she doesn't..then I will definitely be one pissed off girlie. :l

So some other things I just would like to rant and rave about is that well One; I need a JOB! I applied at petsmart, no answer..but it only has been a week..so maybe in a couple of days or so I will hear something :) *keeping my fingers crossed*
But also I am searching for jobs when I can. Right now I honestly can't unless I can apply for it online since I have no gas whatsoever to get from point A to point B. I just need to start making some money for things I need and want. I need gas first off to go places, and the things I would like are more tattoos, shoes, clothes and that's basically about it at the moment.
ahaha I like how I said tattoos first :p
Speaking of Tattoos, I really want a nice piece on my back. I am thinking either a Japanese cherry blossom tree or something else. It will be a pretty gnarly tattoo once its finished. Also another tattoo I would like is a bird on the inside of my calf/ankle plus I drew it so it will look pretty cool hahaha. Then I would like song lyrics going down my rib-cage. But I do not know if I could handle the pain there.
But I would like first get my foot tattoo finished. It looks so plain! I need someone who is amazing at doing tattoos also it needs a wee bit of fixing up..Soo yea.

Hmm what else is going to be happening..Well I am going to start working out again. (running and hardcore exercises) ahhaha. I need to loose weight, i am not happy with myself. But I will be starting that as soon as Thursday hits (that's when I get out of school) hahaha. I am pretty excited about it though. Also I am chopping my hair soon after graduation is done && over with. and dying it a total different color and doing some other stuff to it to make it cutee :)

ehh, i suppose I am done with this post. besides who reads it anyways?? 0.o hahaha!

Oh Goodness my mind has slipped..

The past two days been very chill and content.

Yesterfuckinday, Me and Kt chilled..like normally. We were at her house, and pretty much was on stickam with Bryan[thelion]; James and Jon.

But before they all came in this kid came in and sang to us..and told us he was a pirate. He was quite intresting..then he left after he said that. aha.

Then they all came in, We talked to them til like literally 3:oo in the morning then we got off the computer after entertaing Bryan. aha.

We were just sitting there with our shirts up, it was quite intresting..you may never know what XXL Monsters will do to us. =p

Then Today...was a very lazy day. Kay Me and Katie slept til like 1:3o[p.m.] then got up. talked about how she piled the blankets on me like they were nothing then rolled over. ahah.

Then we both got up and ate some shizz. then went back to her room, Rocked out to some amazing music. then at like 3:3o we layed down and listening to Rediscover's new cd

[itsamazing]

we fell asleep. I kept waking up almost every half hour til I was fully awake, which was at like 6:oo today. My mom came and got me at like 8. then I got home, ate some dinner.

I went downstairs to watch Scarface with my mom and James. then he goes "well now how are we gonna do this?"
talking about smokin some weed. Kay dude, I know that you fuckin do it! I aint dumb! Like seriouslyy they try to make me and amanda think they don't do it. I KNOW THEY DO!

GAWD.

But my mom saw me roll my eyes and she was like "Well ifyou want to smoke it so bad then go upstairs" so he runs up there like theres no tomarrow. and then she goes up there.

He seriously gets on my nerves 90% of the time hes around. ugh..its annoying.

Then I just went to the computer and ingored em.

A little while laterz me and this kid was talking on the phone. he's quite entertaing..

but other than that..i'm quite bored right now and tired..even though I literally slept all fuckin dayyy.

I hate it.

well i think i'm done with this blog fer today.

You've gone too long without sleep.

I know you won't rest stressed,

so give up, just give up.

And don't say no to pills.

Ativin won't kill.