HAPPY NEW YEAR ;;2012 BAYBEYY

HAPPY NEW YEAR LOVES!! 2012 BAYBEYY<3
I am so wowed by the fact that its already 2012, its insane. It was like yesterday I was a little kid and the big hype was the millenium coming up. Time has flown by so quicklyyy! I seriously cannot believe it.
Anywho, So I know everyone is saying "NEW YEAR = NEW ME" also, I know I said it too..I'm NOT changing who I am as a person, I love the way I am. I'm just changing how I look and a little tweeks of myself. I want to change somethings about my body, I know within the past couple years I've lost alot of weight, I know I have a very curvy body and I love that about me! Its just who I am. Curves on a woman is sexy! (just sayinnn') But Honestly I love my body, I just want to tone up and lose maybe 5 to 10 more pounds, but mainly I just want to tone up. I'm kindof thinking trying the whole weight watchers online? I'm looking into it, but I'm not so sure if I should do it or not aha.
So my new years resolution is to just be me & make myself happy! I want to feel good about myself and not look at myself like "ew this is me" No, I am fersurely changing that about myself.

What has been going on with my life? Well, all I have been doing is going to school and working. Nothing too new with me right now actually. Work has been going great! I got my pay raise and I've been trying to work as much as I can:) I'm trying to make extra money for myself and to help out my madre' with the house situations and shanigans we have going on ahaha. School went pretty well the first semester. I passed my Computers class with an A but my Math I didn't pass it..I failed! :( I am kindof upset by it, but I plan on taking it again in the spring semester and I am GOING TO PASS THIS DAMN TIME! the thing that pisses me off about it, is that you had to get at least an 80% on everything, homework/tests..I did! but these two tests I retook, I kept failing..I thought we had one more day of the semester..I didn't know that that monday was the last day of it..I was very upset..I almost cried :( Oh well..I plan to pass and I will work extra hard on my work if I need to for my up coming classes/semesters. I am NOT failing again! Class starts January 6th, I am taking an online class..so hopefully it will be a tad bit easier..also its English. I'm pretty good at English too.

As for my new car, its coming along! c: I am so excited!! I just started building my credit with my credit card my Aunt Lori got for me through her bank. I am so happy that she helped me out trying to get one! Things are working out, slowly but surely. I have been thinking which car though. I'm not sure if I should get a Mazda3 (11 or 12) or a (11 or 12) Ford Focus. I love both cars, they are super cute!I'm just not so sure which to get. My plan is to go on my birthday and get one, it will be a big ol' birthday gift from me to myself! YAY ME! I'm just too excited to think throughly which one to get. I think I need to do more research ;)

I'm getting a new tattoo, veryy soon! I am super excited! once I get my taxes done, I plan on taking some of that to get my next one done. I am getting "and this too, shall pass" on my side in cursive handwriting! I cannot wait to get it..I'm kindof nervous though..it will be somehwat on my ribs..and I herd that kinda hurts a bit EEK :0 !!!! But oh well, I'm gonna be a trooper and just go for it! Just give me a hand to hold and a straw to chew on, I'll be set :) or some gum to chew, that helps too ;) ahhaha
Well I think this is it for this blog! I'm gonna go cuddle up in my blankies and watch storage wars! i'm in relax mode for the rest of the night! c:

GOODNIGHT LOVES! and HAPPY NEW YEAR!

New year = New me !

The new year is coming up quickly, in my eyes. Its time for a new me! I have big plans for this new year. First, getting fit! I'm almost there but I need to push myself more to lose the rest of this weight and get healthy! Second, I plan on changing my hair color to a redish brown color (like Tracy Dimarco from Jerseylicious) I'll be dying it soon though because I want the color for the holidays :) I think it would be very different, and I like being different. I'm not sure what else to do, but I've been thinking about moving out. I think it would be good for me to move out after everything gets situated with my family and this household. But that's a big maybe, I'll have to keep thinking more about it. -long and hard!-

Third, I'm getting a new car! I am thinking on getting a new one. I'm probably going to talk to my papa to be a co-signer if I need one. I just would love to get a mazda3, they are gorgeous! and they get good gas mileage. I'm going to try to save up as much money as I can (after these taxes) for a downpayment on a car. I really need a new car..my car is getting on its last leg very soon :(

I am just hoping everything will work out..

I've been kindof stressed out for a month now. My family keeps agrueing with me, apparently I talk down to them and shit. I try to be nice to them all the time, it just gets aggervating when I have to support 4 people and I can't really enjoy my own money because I'm too busy taking care of everyone else. I am sick of agruing with them! I am so annoyed with it..and too stressed about it. Its too much for a 19 year old to handle!! Its too much, and I feel like I am the adult in this family..I shouldn't be acting like a parent towards them..but it gets annoying when no one is trying except for me. Its just too much for me to worry about..I am just sick of it. Apparently, I need to see a doctor because my mother thinks there is something wrong with me. I'm sorry I'm not going to see a doctor for them to just keep me medicated on something to keep me happy..I can be happy without fucking medicine! Sorry, I'm not everyone else in this world. Its annoying when someone says "i think you need to see a doctor because I THINK there is something wrong with you"...just because I didn't say good morning one day..or if I say something wrong to them..apparently I'm crazy! Its just irritating..

Well, its time for me to get ready for work..maybe hhaa. I just needed to vent, since everyone is kindof mad at me right now, so I can't really talk to them about how I feel. AHH! Hopefully today will turn out to be a better day..rather than it started out to be.

Hope everyone has a wonderful tuesdayy!<3