The new year is coming up quickly, in my eyes. Its time for a new me! I have big plans for this new year. First, getting fit! I'm almost there but I need to push myself more to lose the rest of this weight and get healthy! Second, I plan on changing my hair color to a redish brown color (like Tracy Dimarco from Jerseylicious) I'll be dying it soon though because I want the color for the holidays :) I think it would be very different, and I like being different. I'm not sure what else to do, but I've been thinking about moving out. I think it would be good for me to move out after everything gets situated with my family and this household. But that's a big maybe, I'll have to keep thinking more about it. -long and hard!-
Third, I'm getting a new car! I am thinking on getting a new one. I'm probably going to talk to my papa to be a co-signer if I need one. I just would love to get a mazda3, they are gorgeous! and they get good gas mileage. I'm going to try to save up as much money as I can (after these taxes) for a downpayment on a car. I really need a new car..my car is getting on its last leg very soon :(
I am just hoping everything will work out..
I've been kindof stressed out for a month now. My family keeps agrueing with me, apparently I talk down to them and shit. I try to be nice to them all the time, it just gets aggervating when I have to support 4 people and I can't really enjoy my own money because I'm too busy taking care of everyone else. I am sick of agruing with them! I am so annoyed with it..and too stressed about it. Its too much for a 19 year old to handle!! Its too much, and I feel like I am the adult in this family..I shouldn't be acting like a parent towards them..but it gets annoying when no one is trying except for me. Its just too much for me to worry about..I am just sick of it. Apparently, I need to see a doctor because my mother thinks there is something wrong with me. I'm sorry I'm not going to see a doctor for them to just keep me medicated on something to keep me happy..I can be happy without fucking medicine! Sorry, I'm not everyone else in this world. Its annoying when someone says "i think you need to see a doctor because I THINK there is something wrong with you"...just because I didn't say good morning one day..or if I say something wrong to them..apparently I'm crazy! Its just irritating..
Well, its time for me to get ready for work..maybe hhaa. I just needed to vent, since everyone is kindof mad at me right now, so I can't really talk to them about how I feel. AHH! Hopefully today will turn out to be a better day..rather than it started out to be.
Hope everyone has a wonderful tuesdayy!<3
